When it's all been said and done

As the song so aptly goes, "when it's all been said and done... Only what i've done for loves reward will stand the test of time."

Time.
Because of Einstein, we often call time the fourth dimension. Special relativity shows that time behaves surprisingly like the three spatial dimensions. The Lorenz equations show this. Length contracts as speed increases. Time expands as speed increases.

Ok enough gobbledegooky nonsense;
Bet you mistook me for a nerdy indian scholar who won a NASA essay writing competition and scored a perfect score for the SATs (which, erm, whom, im gonna beat someday) hehe.

Right seriously now. Seriously.
Seriously.
Everyone, well, everyone significant (though not necessarily in a positive manner) is talking about how these 2 years in junior college went by in a flash, how they'll miss each other, what they've learnt from others, what others have learnt From them (in extremely egocentric cases) so on and so forth.

Everyone significant but me.
Until 10 minutes ago that is (:
So.. these years have really gone by in a flash. I've learnt new things, more importantly, others have learnt new things From me, i've wasted another 2 years in school, fighting to stay awake in lectures (okok school wasnt That bad) and of course, i've made new friends.
Making friends is nothing new; not at all. Not to someone as handsome, charming, tall, intelligent, and of course, humble, as I am.
What's new, was making friends from other countries.

You can find them Everywhere- India, Vietnam, China, Malaysia, Indonesia.
Yup, you guessed it. Mosquitoes. Pesky little things. They come from All OVER!!!

Then again, so do the new friends i've made. You'd think they'dve picked a slightlyy larger country to move to but nooo they come here and steal our already scarce lodgings and water. That aside though, they're pretty awesome people. Most of them at any rate =P

So, about the friends i've made from all around the world. Well, all around Asia.
It was really great getting to know them better, learning about their cultures, their backgrounds, imagining some of them powering generators during power failures and of course their religions.

All in all, these are reallyy nice people. I won't mention names cos there're just too many of them and if I only mention some the rest will be all over me bribing me to grant them the honour of typing Then deleting their names in the draft so you get the point. But it's sad to know that most of them are non-believers and as far as Christians believe, aren't going to heaven. It's not a delicate truth. Far from it. It's not delicate, and it's not nice. But I believe in it. Why? That's another story for another day, but it's enough to know that as far as I believe, I'm not seeing them for all eternity.

I've always imagined though, (yes yes indulge me for a moment would you, atheist readers) what the scene'd be like when judgement came a calling. Could I look my friends in the eyes and tell them truly, in all honesty, that I'd done my best to let them see the truth? Indeed, I'd argued more than my fair share for the cause of Chriatianity; researched on countless apologetics just so I'd be ready for their questions, blah blah blah. But if I'd LIVED a life of love, would they have believed me then?

What if they would?
What if all the argument, the countless hours spent debating the goodness or even existence of God were for naught?
What if all they'd needed was a living example of Christ on earth for them to believe that Christianity is more than a religion; a belief. That it's The Truth?

Could I face them then?
Could I face God?
Well done, or how come?

There're approximately 3 more weeks before they leave and I don't see them again for I-dont-know-how-long.
Can what I've failed in for 2 years be made up for in 21 days? Can I be that bit of stained glass letting Christ's light shine through for all to see, or will my friends, my dear friends, leave Singapore the same as they arrived- Bereft of the presence of God in their lives?

Don't get me all wrong and stuff. I know that unless God is willing, nothing will come to be. Abolutely nothing. But loving our neighbours, loving our Lord, is more than just a choice; it's more than something I Want to do.
It's a command.
Shining for God isn't about prophesying, isn't about going to church and serving in ministries every day of the week while getting straight A's to boot.
It's about love.
All about love.

A good friend gave me sound advice: there is Nothing within our power we can do that will change the hearts of non believers. That is God's job. Our job is to sow the seeds of the gospel.
Amen to that.
Yet if we sow the seed of salvation, if we proclaim in the power of the Holy Spirit the truth of our Lord's death and resurrection, yet live not as trees planted firmly in God but as chaff blown about by the billowing gusts of sinful humanity, then exactly what is it that we are doing here?

"Well done, or how come?"


1 Corinthians 13: 1-3
¹If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. ²If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. ³If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Study study study is that all we do?

"Youth is, after all, just a moment, but it is the moment, the spark, that you always carry in your heart."
-Raisa M. Gorbachev

Here in our sunny island singapura, we spend our youth doing one thing- studying.
Studying what you might ask?
Oh, there's history, which big-time megalomaniac picked on which small-time megalomaniac, geography- why Mt. Bukit Timah Hill doesnt have 4 faces carved into it, maybe some algebra even; show that e letter x isn't all that useless after all.
But Why?

Good question.
Looks to me like all we're living for is that little piece of paper with our names on it we'll receive when we're outta Uni ,which tells e world exactly how we've been wasting the last 25 years of our lives away.
So That's why the grads have got funny big hats; it covers their faces pretty well i suppose.
Oh oh and the red thread thingy's for people to tug on when they're saying "ok photo-taking's over you can come out now"

C'mon man, do we Really need 20 years of formal education?
Granted, the mighty Singaporean education system eclipses many other countries' and it's Something at least, considering there's not much else we can boast about, but well, does it Really make that much of a difference?
Are we just pawns in the game of politics, as the royalty languish in their obscene luxury?

Yes yes, dont complain at least you've got something to study, you cant appreciate the privilege you have of a formal education, etc etc for all eternity.

But that's not the point.

The spark we carry in our hearts is snuffed out pretty easy in the name of academia huh.

The God Delusion- Richard Dawkins

Whoo my first proper title! Am i amazing or what. And before you idiots go "or what. *stupid grin*", it's cliched, passe and un-funny so there. ha.

Anyways, as the, ahem, Title, suggests- i was reading the book "The God Delusion".
If you're wondering why i read it, well, know thy enemy, they say (:
Its written by the antichrist himself. Well, fine, maybe not; but if I had 3 guesses on the antichrist i'd use them all on Dawkins (:
For the record, i love Dawkins too <3 Teehee.

Basically, this unenlightened twit of a birdbrain brings up every argument for God's existence known to mankind (and man-unkind, ha-ha) and tears them apart.
Yeah, that's a pretty big ouch for us christians.
Now im not a genius or a philosopher or anything, but to me, well, he had his own flaws and issues with his case, but all in all, it worked- as far as im concerned, Dawkins has, in one book, demolished almost everything theologians have strived for for decades.
Yknow things like saying God doesn't have to be as simple a concept as theologians believe or He's unbelievably complex therefore improbable... blah blah blah. They never shut up, do they?
Bunch of simpletons. (:

Anyways, un-digressing- now that I've thought about it, hellooo smarty-pants theology people; our religion's based on Faith here. That guy's hitting everything we Can't see with everything we Can. We never had a chance; so don't feel too bad about yourselves okay? (:

Yknow how typical apologists show how a hugee chunk of the Bible can be proven (with science mind you) and everything?
Well, im Christian so excuse me while i dont go out of my way to kill my faith here, but still, i can't help agreeing with those darn atheists that it just hasnt been possible to prove the existence of God.
Maybe we can prove that the flood occurred; that e whole world went swimming for a while before realizing with a sinking feeling (hehe) that they were drowning. Or maybe we can even prove that there indeed was a man named Jesus who walked the earth teaching amazing lessons and everything; yknow e shroud of Turin/ unholy grail etc. But no matter how many physical truths the Bible contains, we can't just say God exists cos 99% of e Bible is proven true.
We just can't.
Just to show im studying, it's an, erm, argumentum ad something-um.

No matter how well-versed we are in theology and the, uh, supposed truths in the Bible, when we use the ways of this God-Unforsaken world to defend our case, someone (an athiest!!!) bigger, badder and smarter just comes along and rips our case apart. Into Cs, As Ss and Es. (: That's a lot of parts. =(

So, where does that leave us?

I've no idea if you agree with me or not, but hey, this is My blog.
If you wanna say something about it, go get your own blog. hmph. Shoo.
Anywaysss back to where it leaves us. This is personal ok, but here's e only conclusion i've arrived at:

Our religion absolutely Has to be rooted in our relationship with God.

When you say Grace and people ask wtp you're doing and you reply that you're talking to God, they can't exactly go "no you aren't. Shut up."
Well fine, they can, but it's not exactly something you can argue much about. (Unless you're one of those weirdo doofs who take KI. Sigh. Bobos. GP ftw!(: )
Anyway, yeah, i feel that our faith really can't just be based on physical proofs and a truck-load of head knowledge. It's all important, yeah, but if we lose sight of that relationship, we're just a bunch of people who believe in a particular truth, behave like we believe in that particular truth, and occasionally do radical things to propogate that particular truth, but well, not much more than that.

The God Delusion, he says.
Ugh.
They should just take away his freedom of speech or something.



OK, PART II of the longest post everrr!! woohoo. Making up for a year of not posting (:
But posting results are out, i failed x'( so time to post again (:
Oh c'mon, at least Smile wont you? Im hurt. I really am.

Ok, here's e exciting, long-awaited part II.
You ready?
Seriously..
Drum roll please...
*drum rolls*
*thud* - *drum hits someone*
Not That kind of roll, dolt.
*drum rolls properly*
You reallyy ready?
Hehe.
Seriously now.
Nah, just kidding.
Ok, seriously.

I wanna be a missionary!!!
Yeah, really.
As in, e kind that goes out to unreached people and spreads e gospel! (:
After reading Dennis' blog, and his question of "...who's joining me?", well, i don't know. I want to.
Do i want to out of love, out of getting a kick out of it, so i can feel like im doing something worthwhile with my life, or any other selfish reasons, or for God?
I really don't know now. Need to reflect and pray more. Lots more.

But well, i used to wanna be a scientist, invent an oxygen bomb- to counter e hydrogen bomb so when it goes boom it becomes water (get it?? hahah!! ok. right. You aren't laughing, are you.)
Then i decided law'd be more fun and stuff but i'd rather not be branded a blood-sucking treacherous backstabber. No offence. Ok no la, i just doubt i'll make it (: there're way better potential lawyers out there. *cough* JU. *cough*

But i really really wanna reach those unreached peoplesss!!
I always wonder, does it really have to be a Calling that you can dedicate your life to missions? I don't know how often someone or other's telling us to spread e gospel in the Bible, but it's quite a bit if i remember correctly. So now im saying i wanna be one of those people spending my life travelling around e world reaching people to share e good news. But im stuck wondering if it's what God wants me to do. Bit of an irony, actually. But still, God's will be done (:
Im not doing something like that unless im pretty darn sure God's telling me to. Cos im scared (:

I guess e biggest issue with unreached people is e language barrier. Just imagine.

Well-meaning missionaries: Hello! we come in peace!
Unreached peoples: vnst snui djlihd nuedh
(translation): Did they just say they come in piece? Well im hungry. Think they'd look better in pieces?
Well-meaning and tasty looking missionaries: Sorry, what was that? Didn't really catch that. Speak slower leh. By the way, did i mention that we believe that unless you repent and turn to God, you're not getting through the pearly gates?

The unreached peoples open their mouths reallyyy slowly so they don't scare their prey.. Ahem. Guests... then....

Muffled voice of well-meaning missionaries: Hey Tommy, which one got you? Im in the one with a bone through his hair (: Oh and let's remind our successors to pack some Listerine too. I darn near fainted on the way in.

Ah well, guess there'll be time for self reflection and post-mid-teen crises later. For now, God's pretty much told me in my face that A's isn't something im escaping from. =(((((
So at least im secure in what i'll be doing for the next 9 months of my life at least. Oh, plus national service.

I love Singapore, don't you? (:
18 years of studying, 2 years of national service, then a little More studying before life begins in earnest.
And in case you hadnt heard, Singapore promotes a holistic, well-rounded education here; it's really not all about academics.
Except that if you fail your exams, schools have got the right to kick you out of CCA's, competitions, to bar you from participation in events which require a pretty stable academic bacakground and the only time parents officially meet your teachers is to collect and discuss your examination results.
That aside, academics don't really come into the picture much, really.

A year, and i haven't found out what labels are for.

Ok this is where e cliche goes "hi im back after soooo long i havent had time cos of sch,cca, church.." and so on and so forth. Lucky for you, im e coolest guy on earth and cliche just well, isn't my style =P so yeah, no cliches here(:

(Stop thinking this is cliche. It isn't. Really.)

See dan i learnt how to paragraph and it's all thanks to you. Bet you're proud of me! =)

I am blogging because it is cool and hip and i am cool and hip.

Anyways, (this ISNT KI, doof.), you ever wondered why the pong we're here on earth?
Ok this Is cliche but hey, it's important. hmph.

Seriously, i was watching forrest gump (Not A Word.) and couldnt help reflecting on that. again.
Ok for you deprived sad souls who havent watched it, it basically shows e lifestory of a guy called Forrest Gump (duh) Go watch it yourself. Im not posting no spoilers here.

*cough* He dies. *cough*

I have a strict no spoiler policy. It's just not nice.
Anyways, it really struck me. E dvd case hit my head when it fell off my shelf ='(
That aside, it really struck me. What's life about, to us?
Some of us view studies as the One and Only mostestest important thingy in life. Don't believe me, ask your parents.
Others, (like me!), may say friends and relationships are way more important than studies, and really we could get straight A's but have no friends it wouldnt be worth it at all. Yknow e whole EQ more important than IQ thing? yeah.

Honestly, i feel lotsa people definitely sway towards e relationships more impt than most other stuff cos well, imagine having all e money in e world but no one to share it with. So, dont mind me while i blog about what i believe in. It isn't biased, honest.

Ok so let's ASSUME im right, (that shouldnt be too difficult). We're heading down the road which goes "money can't buy happiness". It's really easy to see how- I guess most of us would take it this way: It cant buy you true friends. Or love. And other stuff. So yeah, money gets you lotsa stuff, but relationships, well, not that.

(I know this is uberrr long, but hey, i was bored, okay?)

So.. we're kinda saying that happiness, or most of ours anyways, stems from our relationships or love and things like that right? Just say yes. Be nice.
Ok so we're heading down this really nice path in life. It may not have all e riches in e world and it may be like, real tough, working 12 hours a day etc, but you've got great friends or even a spouse to get you through it. Their love, and yours, gets you through e arduous long days.

The years go by, sands of time trickle down, e years fly past, whatever. Time passes.

Soon enough, you find yourself facing retirement- it's a good thought i suppose, after years of slogging away. You and your spouse can Finally just sit down and relax, chill with friends (I have no idea what a bunch of elderly folk do when they, uh, Chill, but let's not get too imaginative here)
Ok lets say you're reclining in a rocking chair recounting fond memories, looking at photos. Memories just rock don't they.
Then, one by one, your friends get ill, bed-ridden, comatose, really sick, and they die. People you care about start dropping out of your life. The people you shared your joys and sorrows with are dead. Gone forever.

You mourn with your life-partner. Then your spouse dies too.

Memories are all you've got left.
Till you die, too.
Then you've got absolutely nothing. Nothing at all.
It's easy how we can say materialism's useless cos it's something we can't take with us when we die and all that stuff, but we cant take our memories with us either. We cant take warm fuzzy feelings and moments we treasure so much with us when we pass out of this life, into the next.

So, what on earth are we here for?? While we're living, so many things can mean sooo much to us. Our loved ones could mean e world, and we'd just Dieee if they were brutally ripped away from us. As as wise wise man once said, life is all about relationships after all huh. Without them, what'd there be left to live for?

As christians, I think our life's still all about relationships. But relationships with whom?
There's only one that truly counts, and if this relationship doesn't mean more to us than the world, then maybe there's something we gotta start thinking about.

wooooooooooooh val rocks :D

abt a million tag replies wtp.

isnt a tagboard for everyone else to talk and not ask for replies and everything?! wtp. you people have Got to read up on what a blog is for. in essence, insulting people and trying not to get arrested or otherwise if you insult e wrong people. oh, and for blogging of course. how could i forget that.
(this counts as a new paragraph, fyi.)

lemme see. ok, starting from a month ago:

yan- friendly is e understatement of the century luh. im positively overflowing with warmth and bursting with enthusiasm at the opportunity of meeting new people; but there Are exceptions of course (: hehe.



liwen- hey! hmm. what d'you mean strong abt my faith? haha. btw how's aussie? xD


someone- something. so who are you?! yes, my pet dog.


joanne- haven't you ever wondered where tht smell in your room came from? i mean even You couldn't possible smell That bad xD


robin and everyone else who complimented e survey- yay thanks! wdv you mean by good.haha. and screw surveys.they're vile evil things created to expose our deepest,darkest secrets. beware!!! muahaha.


zeejay- heyy PD! =P our class is like 10 times quieter la. traitor. xD jkjk.


jo- What?! me? lie? preposterous. away from me, treacherous blasphemer! well yes, it isnt surprising is it. being the subject of intense jealousy and envy never was the best way to make friends (:


dan- i know i drop bio alr la but still not free enough to make surveys right?! haha. its shaun btw, and yeah, SLung rocks la =P


best enemy (talk about irony) - i'll take that as a compliment , thanks (: i Did! it died e night after you came over. must be trauma; or the shock. poor poor me. sniff. :'(


Johnny: who are you?? sure i will. you'd better do it, whoever you are (:


shawn: sorryyy, im a busy man xD you also never reply my tag on your blog! non-existent as it may be =)


legends never die- i'll seriously prove your nick wrong e nxt time i see you, ingenious indiotic indian =P no im not, so be careful nxt time im around huh? anys, how's it like back in your, oh, rural, secluded village where your weekly allowance could build a palace? =)


SinLih- yeahh sounds a bit like you doesnt it? =P jkjk. miss you mann.haha. hope you're enjoying aeronautical whatsit xD albeit wdv ulterior motives you may have regarding working on a plane with, hmm, quite a few air stewardess' (:


"Ellie"- you did! isn't it alee?! =/ hmm. i've been deluded all my life then.hehe.


Kitty- meow. who's passerby?! hahah. yeah she spelt it wrong too! wtp is yong kit man, kitty's e way to go xD


shaun- which shaun are you?!e only shaun i know pwns me in chem, which isnt saying much i guess. but stilll.. teacher?! curses in fashion now are they? xD


val- this counts as an update doesnt it? (: it had better. aw crud i feel so honoured, tagged by none other than e vp =P hehe.


weee finally done. i meant every word i said. honest. do i Ever lie? (:
anyways, reaching 10 posts soon! how exciting. i should be named postman of the year; a highly coveted title im sure, but awarded none other to the one, the only, me. =)
P.S. postman Pat almost beat me to it. Almost. pity e peeps in charge thought he looked a tad too blue. now he has to work his head off and humiliate himself on national tv. what a loser.

now now dont get jealous here; there're plenty of other amazingly prestigious awards to be won. all you have to do is email your neopets username and password to

i_just_stole_your_neopets_account_hahaha@jeemail.com and stand a chance, a really small chance mind you, a really Really small chance, to win an autograph from the one, the only, (you guessed it), Me!!! =)

so what are you waiting for, start emailing Now! (:

survey?!? =/

I assure you, i was forced to do this. Coerced into doing it by a cruel, twisted and sadistic pri 6. =)
Disclaimer: Sometimes, honesty isn't the best policy. =P
zzz.
1)Do you wish to get married?
Depends on whether girls today start looking more like people and less like dogs. (No, i am Not gay)

2)What do you want the most right now?
World Peace "v v" ^^

3)Who do you trust the most?
My pet dog. my secrets are safe with him.

4)Do you have confidence?
That's confidential.

5)If you could have a dream come through,what would it be?
That the person who made up this accursed survey had never been born.

6)Are you satisfied with yourself?
Nope.

7)What are you afraid to lose now?
My sanity. What kind of survey Is this?!?

8)Do you believe in eternal love?
Yeah, from God, and Him alone.

9)Have you broken someone's heart that he/she committed suicide?
Oh suree lots of times. Eg Every time a girl asks me out and gets rejected. again. =)

10)What do you hate most about yourself?
The fact that i actually Agreed to do this survey. And that every one who looks at me gets jealous of Something =/ sigh.

11)What are the requirements that your other half must have?
lots and lots of money =) jkjk. christian.

12)What feeling do you hate the most?
The feeling that I'm wasting my time doing things like surveys =P

13)Do you cherish every single second of your friendship?
Honestly speaking, and i mean honestly, i get pretty bored sometimes, but i guess you could say i cherished them =)

14)Do you treasure your family?
Do i have a choice =/

15)What do I love to do?
Lots of things.

16)What do you hope will always be there for you?
Sweets.

17)What do you regret most in your life?
Not doing more for my friends when i could have.

18)What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friend's eye?
A friendly one.

19)What are you currently doing now?
Wondering which imbecile came up with such an interesting survey question.

20)What do you hate the most?
Chinese, duh.